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Why I Took a Break From Writing

Sunday, September 4, 2016
It has been almost a year since I last wrote fiction. I haven't seen my beloved characters in ages, haven't checked in to see how they're doing, and it kind of feels like I've abandoned my own children. It's a bit surprising to think that, before this, I had spent nearly all of my time writing. I would rush home from high school to write, I would lie to my parents just so I could write, and I would stay up extremely late just to write. It seemed like writing consumed me and took all the space in my life. That was everything for me, back then, and it was good. Writing felt good.

But, after some time, writing just... lost its spark.

So I decided to take a break from writing. At first, it was weird not to write after living a life where writing was the only thing that I knew. It was the only real hobby that I had, and I filled all of my free time with it, so not having that to do was a bit hard. It was also difficult because I had developed a feeling of guilt whenever I wouldn't write a certain number of pages per week, so I was constantly punishing myself internally, but I had to remind myself that I was not writing on purpose.

So, what did I do instead? I poured my soul into my school work, my other interests, and my relationships. And, after doing that for a long time, I realized something important. I was learning all the things that my characters possessed. All that time, I had been writing stories from moments which I hadn't truly experienced. I was writing from assumptions, from observations... Finally, I had the chance to experience some amazing and shitty moments. And, after a while, living felt good.

I took a break from writing to figure out what I wanted to write. I had started to think that writing fiction wasn't the path I was destined to take. I was rereading my works, cringing at them, and losing hope altogether, when I considered the thought of abandoning fiction. I knew that I wanted to be a writer, but what kind of writer? Was I meant to write poetry, news, essays, travel blogs? I wanted to explore the possibilities, to find which area I was most good at. 

This blog is a product of that curiosity. I wanted to see how I would "function" as a blogger, if I could pull off writing essays on a regular basis, if I would actually enjoy doing it, and if people would respond positively to my posts. So far, the results have been good, and I absolutely LOVE writing here, but still... 

Fiction isn't letting me go. 

A few days ago, the urge to write fiction tugged at me. As I was walking around campus, I suddenly felt the desire to write stories again. I missed the feeling of writing fiction, of making up characters and worlds and creatures. The endless possibilities that fiction holds are just incomparable.

And I think I'm going to continue writing fiction.

Do I regret taking a break from writing? Not really. I may not have produced as many works as I had hoped to produce by the time I turn twenty (birthday coming up!), but hey, at least I've spent a year reflecting and figuring out my identity as a writer. Now, everything is clearer. I now know which type of writing to spend my time on, to pour my SOUL into, and to give my entire heart to. I guess it has always been fiction writing, and I just had to miss it to realize it.

Gail the fiction writer is back, everyone. But that doesn't mean this blog is going anywhere. 

I'm not leaving you any time soon.
6 comments on "Why I Took a Break From Writing"
  1. Yaaaaay can't wait to see your amazing work!! :))

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    1. Thanks Arief! Feel free to leave a link to your work here so others can check 'em out.

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  2. When I took my "writing break", I've used to order specialists to write my essays because I hadn't time for all my homework.

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  5. Yeah, I am also trying to make a break from writing, cuz it is really hard to look for an inspiration all the time. At this period of time I am just buying an essay at paidpaper cuz the price is really good.

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